The grass is always greener; somewhere else is always better than where you currently are and people are always better than you if they live in a bigger city. Sound familiar? That's mantra of the self-hating El Pasoan. To be honest, I'm really damn sick of it.
If you don't like El Paso - leave. If you don't think there are the caliber of people here that you want to be seen with - leave. Nobody is forcing you to consume our little paradise here. Don't waste another second of your life being tortured by us. We really don't want your angst weighing on our conscience.
Even my own friends at NPT are addicted to people who live other places, but want to tell us how we are supposed to be. They've got some guy who lives in New York City who is their new golden boy for content. His shit is boring. He's an average writer at best and a self indulgent one at that. Rich Wright is ten times the writer he is. However, the new guy is automatically better than everyone else and allowed to stink up the pages of NPT because he's from somewhere else - obviously he's better than anyone here locally who wants to write, right? After all, the guy does live anywhere but El Paso, so he MUST be better than anyone here locally.
We as a city, through progressive outlets like the El Paso Media Group, are searching for the twenty-first century El Paso. Too often we are inundated with expat losers who can't achieve anything great wherever they've moved to, so they dirty our local media up with their "I'm too good to live in El Paso, but I'll tell you how you should be living" drivel. For some reason the gatekeepers let this crap through.
I have a few rules I live by
1. Never take legal advice from another guy in a holding cell
2. Don't pay a fat person to help you lose weight
3. Never make plans with someone who isn't going to be there when you execute those plans
4. Stay on Teresa Caballero's good side... or at least don't become the object of her obsession.
Number three in that list is exactly what we are doing to ourselves when we let expats tell us how to live. We are never going to be a San Antonio, Austin, Taos, Phoenix or Denver. I don't care how many people wish we could be, it ain't going to happen. We are much too different. We have way too many cultural barriers - AND THAT'S NOT A BAD THING!
The self-hating El Pasoans go off to other places to visit and live and feel the need to compare us to them. They put their thoughts into words and our local gatekeepers are all too happy to embrace those who they feel are "enlightened." It's total bullshit.
When I was in DC - I was published in DC. I never spent time telling El Paso how it should be. God knows I had offers. I never felt the need to give my opinion on something I wasn't invested in. I was never so delusional that I thought people in El Paso would give a damn what some guy who left them by his own choice thought about their city.
The local media outlets should be promoting El Paso writers and artists. We don't need input from the people who are too good to live here. We need not be their whipping boy. Even when they hide behind reminiscent tales of days lived in El Paso's past, they are always still saying, "El Paso wasn't good enough for me."
It's the same as a married man writing a letter to the girl he dated just before he met the woman who would become his wife. No matter what he has to say it always ends with, "I met someone I liked more than you." Who wants to hear that?
It should be noted that when I was in DC, I bragged about El Paso and Texas all the time. Everyone used to say, "if it's so great, why do you move back?" One day I announced that I was going to do just that. I was seven months into my dream job. Hell, it would be your dream job too - it was a "once in a lifetime opportunity." One of my biggest critics - a person who hated hearing about Texas - came to my office on my last day and said he's never actually known anyone that left DC on their terms to go back to the "God forsaken shithole they crawled out of." It was his way of telling me that he believed me when I said my hometown was bigger than any paycheck I could get somewhere else. I send him pictures of sunsets and 70 degree December days to torture him whenever I can. He gets a kick out of it.
Too bad I'll be ignored. When you're jealous, envious and in love with people because they live somewhere you wish you lived, your judgment is worthless. Maybe if I dressed in a suit everyday and strolled around like a DC asshole I'd get some respect around here. Too bad I have too much self respect to do such a thing.
In the end I feel bad for those who live here and want to have a voice, but are pushed out of the way by the expats and their condescending contributions. I'm lucky - others are not. I get a voice.
And by no means am I telling people not to leave - please do. Please go live somewhere else for a few years. You'll either miss this place like you've never missed anything before, or you'll realize that you belong somewhere else. Either way, leave us alone until you are ready to come home. Bring your experiences, hopes and dreams when you come back. Apply them to your community from inside your community. Be a stock holder in El Paso, not a foreign investor.
Just so you know and since I've already pissed off people today -
The reason El Paso will never be any other city I listed above is because we are not 80 percent white. We are 80 percent Hispanic. White people do goofy shit Hispanic people would never go for - i.e. $22 plates of Mexican food, oxygen bars and the Volkswagen Jetta. I'm not sure we're missing much, anyhow.
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